ALright, I’m gonna write. It sucks. Every time you get invited. And now in front of me. I guess it’s getting better but right when it happens it sucks.
Today it hurt because of you actually making me feel bad for feeling bad. Both with A and S they were my best friends and I had to feel bad hanging out with them alone. I had canceled and not done things with them to not leave you alone and because of your jealousy. But now you don’t understand and are mad that I am not happy with you stealing my friends away.
And I feel like you stole them away, yes. They were my friends and I always made sure to include you in everything. I’d change dates and schedule/not schedule things based on what you wanted and liked. And because of the above, I would not do things because you didn’t feel like it or didn’t like it. But I wouldnt’ schedule stuff alone while leaving you. I never left you. I just wouldnt’ do things I liked. On top of that, if something amazing was coming up and you couldn’t go I would reschedule or not do it. I am not going to a safari to not leave you alone. I skipped extending trips. I skipped going to Beijing. You were not happy with me going to Sydney. But now you’re mad at me for being mad at you for stealing my friends?
I cultivated a friendship with them. And now you’re just taking it away. We’re falling into the husband and wife roles. With V and E just whatever. It sucks but it just makes me realize what they wanted anyways. They’re traditional, which is just a way to explain them being sexist. V will have that “oh men” attitude. And fucking E is all feminist but have the traditional roles. Fuck them. I am fed up with E. Idk why I’m so much more forgiving with V though.
Regardless, that’s fine. It sucks that you took S away. She won’t stand up. She has no spine. She only cares about her privacy. I dont’ understand what she thinks of our friendship. It’s so weird. We talk literally all day but she shows nothing. She shares nothing. We are distant best friend. So fucking weird.
A reason I dont’ have guy friends is that I am always trying to include you. You don’t schedule anything for yourself. Let’s change that. Fuck you too. I’ll now do what I want and schedule what I want. I always want to make sure you’re happy to. Fuck that. You leave me hanging like that so now we’re not a team anymore. Fine. Take my friends and go be happy.
It’s a relief I guess. I now can do my stuff. I can schedule my things. I can have my friends. I dont’ want to hang out with you anymore. I don’t want to hang out with your friends. Take them all. Fuck you. Fuck them all.
I scheduled parties and made sure people could come, and people were happy. Great, I was the host. I am glad I was able to bring you good times. Now you go and fuck off. Nice. Great friends I have.
Fuck off.